Update 4/29/24

An artist writers block. That’s the state of mind I have been stuck in for weeks now. I haven’t had the motivation to write a story, a theory, or an essay, even though I love to write them. My life has been a recent whirlwind that has my mind bouncing around in confusion. Yet, I now write, and I’ll write with emotion, because with emotion brings the best writing.

I think right now is the loveliest time, this springtime. The snow here is gone, the weather is very rainy, and that’s good because it then promises a lushes greenery of summer. I’m most excited for summer, as it is hot, sunny, and green. Green is my favorite color, so to live in a place that has such greens everywhere is a treasure. Flowers and food herbs and plants are so exciting to me. I hope to start a small potted garden in my yard, just to plant herbs and possibly a fruit or a vegetable. Though, I truly don’t have a green thumb, I’m actually notorious for “un-aliving” plants. I want to keep trying though, I love green and plants too much to not try. Like my Kraft Mac and Cheese: I’m completely awful at making such a simple and instructed thing, but I like that Mac and Cheese a lot, so I continued to make (mostly abominations) anyway, and now I can make it decent. It took me about 6 years just to make Kraft Mac and Cheese like a normal person, but I at least stayed trying. So even though my green thumb is pretty rotted right now, I hope to be able to make it green.

I’m reaching the end of my senior year now, and it’s getting hectic. It’s both calm and eventful, or maybe I’m just reacting to the events of this year too calmly. Nonetheless, I’m getting through it, and when I graduate, I’ll break myself and prepare in the summer, work many hours, and be sent off to college. I’ve recently picked up my story writing again, and just acquired a quill and ink. Like the truly excited writer I am, the idea of vintage books and quills and ink, parchment and pens, all very exciting for me. Writing is an expression of myself, and it exercises my brain. I must pick up on my philosophical understandings and analyses, as they are now becoming more prominent in my life again. I took an unwanted break from writing and it was purely my fault. I don’t want to make the mistake again of neglecting something that’s so exciting for me, and something that makes me think.

In the near future, I’m planning on publishing more stories and theories, I’m in the works of creating an online store for products I talk about (like my quill) and will update soon. Currently, I’m preparing myself for the events of the next coming months, and planning on consistency. I’ll incorporate writing back into my life and find time for brain activities (like the readers digest condensed book collection I’m dying to get my hands on).

For this summer, I envision a period of Twilight Zone, a shifting period. There are major events in the summer but, I imagine travel, a calmness of surroundings, a writers consistency. Whether it’s writing, cleaning, working, traveling, reading, designing, creating, planning, or a million other things on my bucket list, I want to achieve my goals. That starts out with a daily checklist. Daily checklists are where I’ll start and where many people should start. As well as, “Romanticizing” as it’s a great trick of the brain, as little motivation can jumpstart into further motivation with the idea of romanticizing. That’s where I’ll begin, in the tasks I force upon myself. Another update will be soon, this one in philosophical thought.

Au revoir,

Kayla