I hope everyone had a good holiday (for those who might celebrate). My celebration is Christmas, and I’m so excited for some of the presents I received. I got a keyboard that I’ve been wanting that helps me write faster and more efficiently then just my laptop does. It’s one of those creamy click keyboards that is really satisfying. Once I get more people that discover this blog, I might start a little shop here in the blog for those that might follow me and want quick links to the stuff I talk about. That’s for future notice, for now, I hope the new blog set up is easier to navigate. I don’t have many people that know how it looked before, but let’s just say it wasn’t very aesthetic. Does anyone have new year resolutions? Mine isn’t set in stone exactly, more of a checklist in my head I want to accomplish. Like waking up early to workout, drinking more water (as an avid coffee drinker I think those that can relate will understand the lack of water), to keep up on my journaling, and to create better habits. I suppose I’m trying to heal the damage I’ve let my inner self get to. When I was in my relationship not too long ago I tended to ignore my needs and put my partner first, but now he’s out of the picture. So I’m trying to learn how I can self-love again. It’s been awhile since I put my needs first, and I admit that is never a good thing. I suppose I always aimed to please my partner so I was giving up the self-care I used to do. Not anymore though, I now realize just how important it is to love yourself first, or you may rely on or not fully love the other person. Honestly around this time of year things get pretty dull. Places are dreary, the holiday chaos is wrapped up, the days are coldest, and the sky is cloudiest. I might write much more frequently in the blog to keep my mind away from the sadness the season brings. I hope others that might have seasonal depression can relate to what I’m saying, and understand that a good way to get through the dull life moments is to distract yourself. I tend to constantly listen to music, it allows my thoughts to have a blockade. Or to create something, that puts me in a better mental state. Whatever way it is, try a distraction like a hobby. Mine is quite obviously writing, or drawing, (I’ll also soon put together a gallery of projects I do in the future).
So what’s happening in life right now: I’m going to classes, going to work, working on classes, and trying to keep up with the new schedule I put into place. It’s a bit hard right now to get through these things, from factors like weather and my past relationship intruding into my head, but I try my best. It’s rather hard to go from thinking of a person constantly, and those thoughts making you happy to now sad. It’s not like your brain turns off the constant thinking of them, but now they’re associated with pain. It’s tough, but, I go by each day and each day gets easier.
I’m currently reading Klara and the Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro, which is actually really good right now, it’s sci-fi based and the story is about a droid named Klara who wants to explore the world. I tend to like and read sci-fi books. Or romantic novels. I’m a bit picky when it comes to what I read, but sci-fi and romance is really my ballpark. I prefer to read a loving story because I generally am a romantic. Sci-fi is the most exciting to me because it is the most creative you can get. You create worlds and people with abilities and skills in plots entirely in different out-of-world rules. It’s extremely exciting for me to read such a creative and new point of view. Discovering new worlds is such a fun exploration. That probably helps stem my writing preference, creation of art and implying whatever you want into a whole world is incredibly fascinating. Like J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter, a magical world within our own is truly wondrous.
What’s to come in my blogging future is a few short and long term hopes or additions. I’ll post a short story that I wrote 2 years ago and was acclaimed for and a mental health philosophical analysis and personal share article. As I also said before, I hope to create a shop with quick links to things I obsess over, edit the site a bit more, and generally just post whatever comes to mind. I hope you stay tuned to further future posts.
Au revoir tout monde,
Kayla
A Kosie Place 
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